Just feeling weird about this one thing

You see, I like to draw and write. When I'm writing about something and coming up with a new story I will do character designs. My boyfriend has never really shown an interest in this and I've become comfortable with him not being a part of it. Well, now, all of a sudden he's acting interested.

I know why he's doing it; recently we talked about how we're growing apart because we don't have anything in common and we never really hang out anymore. He wants to know more about my writing and drawing and, frankly, I'm not comfortable with it. Drawing and writing are something I only share with my friend Gobi and sometimes other close friends. But never with him.

I feel like he's invading my personal space. This is the last thing I have that's only mine. It's more than just simply writing and drawing, it's a place where I dream all my secret dreams and make all my private wishes. It's a sacred place. People like Gobi will not make it dirty because she isn't afraid. She and I don't have to agree on everything. She'll share my dreams with me and encourage me selflessly. But my bf wouldn't understand. He takes everything and makes it about him. If I'm lonely then I shouldn't be lonely because he is there. If I feel like my life is pointless then I shouldn't because I have him.

I guess I'm making him sound like a bad person, and he isn't. He's just kind of self-centered when it comes to these things. He has a hard time thinking that whatever is wrong could be about something besides him.

I guess our problem is that this sacred place is about me and what I want and what I feel. I'm not ashamed of my thoughts there. It's the last place that is only about me, and I don't want that to go away. That's why he really needs to back off.

This journaling thing really is helpful. When I started writing, I didn't know exactly what my problem was. Now I do. Go figure :]