Secrets...

I am so scared. Married. Married! I'll be getting married to this man!
I feel so terrible about this! I feel like we're going to move in together and he's going to expose things that I've been hiding from him.
Such as... I'm a total fangirl over various characters!! T_T



Then again...



I've never ever cheated on him- I've never even considered it! And I mean I've never kissed, touched, or had sex with another man.
Not only that- I worry about his feelings and opinions, I sleep with him when I don't feel like it, I take care of him when he's sick, and I've told him he can watch porn!



I love him,
I just don't want him going through my stuff >:/

I love him,
I just don't want to give away my whole life to him!



I want things that belong to me and no one else!
I'm worried that.... That will be taken away.....

I think he would understand that much, but I know that he would SO freak out over the fangirl part. :/
So........ I can't tell him about that.
Maybe I'm not cut out for this whole "commitment" thing......
I've got some thinking to do.......