Dreaded Cosmic
Harsh Tea
Summer Lost
Freaky Creek
Scissors Running
Helpless Butter
Grim Avenue
Olive Balcony
Disappointed Postal
Mysterious Winter
So...
I've found out the only way I can draw is alone, or with this one very close friend of mine.
It makes me feel bad though... I can draw with her but not with my boyfriend around...
Also... he was over this past weekend and... I just didn't want him here...
I felt bad about it but................
I just felt so agitated with him being in the room... Because I wanted to draw... and when he's there I just don't feel comfortable drawing.... He always gets in my face and wants me to pay attention to him....... Now how the fuck am I supposed to draw if someone's in my face?! Fuckin dick! >8U
I was so agitated and felt so crowded out with him around that I actually left my room and sat in my mom's walk-in closet! Yes. That is how badly I wanted to be alone!
Now he stayed over all weekend and my weekend is up without me having gotten much drawing done!
It's back to work tomorrow >:/
Ah.... work.... I liked it at first... now it's something I just don't like to do anymore.......
It seemed like a good job...... Still seems like a good job....... I'm just tired of it already >:I
I tutor children..... Don't worry.... I'm not this angry at work.
It's just...... I don't feel like I'm any good at it :/
There's this one girl who can't read at all. I get nowhere with her. She won't even listen to me read to her.
This other kid just doesn't get fractions at all. And he doesn't understand the relationships between numbers very well.
Like.....
3x2=6 therefore 6/2=3
Sometimes.......
I'm afraid.........
...............
Generally I'm high
Not off of drugs- just off of life.
Generally I'm a happy person........
.............
Most of the time.
But sometimes some twinge of reality will hit me.........
Like........ the things I obsess over......... they aren't real.
.........................
But even after having said that
I can't help but think
that somewhere
lurking in some shadow
in some corner
in some alley
in london
..................
Undertaker exists in some form or another O.O
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| This is the above-mentioned Undertaker Don't ask me what the Japanese text says.... O.O I have no friggin clue! I'd love to know, though, because I think it's something about Undertaker 8I T_T somebody tell me! |
XD Maybe it's like how people believe in God even though it seems so improbable. It's like..... he must be out there somewhere!! 8U
Gawd- I think if I got stoned/drunk enough I'd start praying to him XDDDDDD (To Undertaker, I mean XP)
>_< Anyway, this guy's much more fun than that 'God' people spend so much time worrying over.
But I digress........
Fuck........... I just want to spend one weekend all alone......... No one coming over....... No one inviting me over............. Just drawing and writing....... That would be my "heaven"........
Well, the best I can hope for right now is waking up tomorrow around 11 like I always do, going to work, and then coming home and either drawing, writing, watching Netflix, or some combination of all of them. That's all I ever really want to do (hehe I don't have very complicated desires). Of course.... when someone finally decides to found the "Church of Undertaker" I'll devote myself to the church XDDDD
Gawd........... I feel so.......... mad............
:I :/
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