Out of Body Experience :O (I think! ^_^’)

So I was looking up all this shit about Out of Body Experiences and how you can have one and I think I (almost) had one…

Like… I waited till I felt the sleep paralysis coming on, and it was all good. Then I think I actually started to gain my sight (Supposedly you’re kind of blind at first when you have an OBE), but I saw this figure Silhouetted with red light and it scared me so I pulled out of it at the last minute :/

Ima try again later, I guess… I wonder who that person was? Maybe I’ll find out. It’s not like anything can really hurt me in that state. I mean, what are they honestly gonna do to me? Say mean things? Make mean faces? XD I get that in the waking world already!

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I think I’m gonna make a ouija board and use it. I will probably wait for Paige to come over, but I might not. I can’t do it yet, though- I’ve got to get white candles (it’s supposed to draw good spirits and repel bad ones XP).

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I was thinking about it and… Supposedly everyone has a guardian angel, so I think if my brother has one that he probably really doesn’t like me XD

I am mean as HELL to that child! So I guess that’s one soul I ought to steer clear of in any OBEs I have

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I’m watching this show called “Ghost Adventurers.”

It’s kind of like “Ghost Hunters,” But instead of using a smart, professional, unbiased team; they use a bunch of idiots who are just looking to stir shit up in the worst possible way. 8I

So like… when they leave I bet all hell is going to break loose.

Ouija Board Rules

Do not play with the Ouija board!
Never play alone.
‘don’t let the demons escape’ or ‘don’t allow the planchette to count down through the numbers or through the alphabet.
Place a silver coin on the Ouija board
Never ask about God
Say Goodbye-this is done by first thanking the spirits for coming forwards to speak with you, you should then wish the spirits peace and then say ‘goodbye’. Should the spirits or demons not say ‘goodbye’ by moving the planchette after you have wished them farewell, then you should repeat ‘goodbye’ and ‘leave’ in a loud stern voice, and then pass the planchette through the flame of a candle.




Tips:

Is it a Good Spirit?

Respect the Dead

Try not to be afraid of the spirit

Before asking about yourself, find out more about the spirit.

Limit the amount of time you spend using your Ouija Board.

If at any time during your conversations you feel the spirit becoming hostile, immediately say goodbye and put the board away.

NEVER ask questions that have to do with religion

Keep your eyes on the planchette

"Before anything we have two tall white candles we light them and place them at the corners of the board. This brings only good spirits and energy. (This is taught by a Wiccan)

First we gather whomever that wants to play, usually its me and my 2 other friends. We then sit down on the floor indian style, knees touching. Contact is supposed to help the connection for the questions we ask and with the spirit. (Good for the beginning, but you can move around after a awhile)

Second we all say a prayer to protect ourselves and our board. it is a simple protection prayer we've made up over the years. This ensures good spirits and a positive experience.

Third We clean the board, which means switching the planchette between yes and no until we feel its "clean"

Fourth We begin asking questions of course of the spirits first then yourself. We have learned that spirits are genderless and they will answer accordingly. Also NEVER ask questions that have to do with religion, because ouija is purely spiritual and should not be disturbed by asking things about God or whatever.

Fifth After asking your questions, clean the board and thank them, and then point your planchette on goodbye. blow out candles.

****please be sure to clean the board between each question (wiping between yes and no) after you get an answer, clean. this helps the spirit give precise answers. Because of this I've encountered some spirits with great spelling!"

Weird Experiences

Mkay... I've had some weird shiz happen... I'll share it here to keep track of it.
One summer a couple of years ago, my mom and I heard knocking sounds coming from the forest surrounding our house. It happened for quite a while- at least until it got cold. Several months after it stopped happening, I walked over to one of the areas where the knocking was coming from. The trees over there were all bent in a funny way- like someone had grabbed the top of them and pulled them down to the ground without breaking them or killing them.

One time a really good friend of mine was over at my house and ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE 8U. Fuckin shit it was crazy!! The night before she came over I felt like someone was watching me as I layed in bed.... >_<
Once she came over we waited till dark and then went for a walk. While on the walk we saw a UFO. It looked liked a bright shining ball in the sky. It rose up out of the forest and hovered and floated like a butterfly. Then we went home.
After we had gone to sleep I woke up with period pains. I went to the kitchen and took some ibuprofen. As I passed by a mirror I saw what appeared to be the figure of a little boy across the room. Strangely, I wasn't afraid.
I went into my room and got on my computer. I used the internet for a while on my wireless mouse. Soon I got tired again and decided to turn off my computer and go to sleep. I shut down the computer, turned the mouse over and went to turn it off- only to find that it was already switched off. The switch on the bottom had been in the off position all along! I've tried time and again to recreate this and that mouse just won't work with the switch in the off position!
Then my friend woke up and told me she'd had an out of body experience! She said she hadn't gone anywhere- all she did was look at us both sleeping.

I have one of those glade light show things. Last night, I remember turning it off specifically. I turn it off every night because I can't sleep with it on. When I woke up it was on.

Smaller incidents:
-Several years ago I went to sleep in my room in a bra and panties with the door locked. When I woke up the next morning my door was unlocked and I was fully dressed in pajamas.
-Once, when I was about 9 or 10 years old, I was laying in bed staring at the ceiling. Suddenly it felt like something punched me in the shoulder. The force was enough to roll me onto my side. I was paralyzed with fear.
-When I was little I went to a wedding at the St. Augustine lighthouse with my parents. While I was there the "lady in white" spoke to me. She told me and my cousin to stop what we were doing (We were horsing around like little idiots XD).
-Every time I pass by this one dark corner of my living room when I'm alone (day or night) I always feel creeped out. That's the same corner I saw the little boy figure standing in. I've always felt creeped out by that corner even before I saw the boy.
-A lot of times when I watch something creepy at my boyfriend's house, the sound system messes up. Whoever is there has a sense of humor >_<
-When I was like 6-7 years old I was laying in bed one night and felt like something was strangling me.
-I had a dream that was a premonition of something that happened in the Anime Kuroshitsuji. I dreamed that I was Elizabeth and I was drowning and Ciel came and saved me.
-I used to go to church and be in a youth group for girls. Once we all camped outside the church together and played games and stuff. We still had access to the church bathrooms and stuff. So in the morning me and two other girls went to the bathroom. We were kinda loitering around in there when suddenly the toilet in the middle bathroom stall flushed on it's own. We all stopped and listened for a minute. Then I reached out and touched the door to the stall and it cut off immediately.
-I often see figures in the house for an instant of a second... I don't know if this means anything though :/ It could just be my eyes.

Stuff that has happened to Gobi:
-Her bedroom door opens and closes on it's own (I saw this happen)
-Her bathroom door opens on it's own when she's in the shower.
-There are spiders all around her house and in her neighborhood (not really paranormal but still weird)
-She has been touched before while she was trying to sleep.

Undertaker's eyes

So

it has come to my attention

that

they've shown

Undertaker's eyes in the manga! 8O

Well, one of them...

I loveded it 83!!!

I mean... at first I thought it was a different character's eye, 

but then I looked again and realized that 

that character's hair isn't long enough to hang down like that.

So it's definitely Unny X3

I guess Yana thought that 

since she threw this in 

she could just ignore Undertaker for another 8 or 9 months! >:/

Well she's got another thing coming >8U

It's okay to grow apart! ^_^

So, I read this article about "Growing apart". Supposedly it's okay to grow apart, as long as you are both growing. If one partner grows and the other one doesn't then the growing partner will become bored of the other partner. So it's important, in relationships, that you challenge one another to grow. Maybe... We should expose each other to new things.
Once my boyfriend gets his car, we'll be able to go places together! Maybe once ever couple of weeks or so, we can take turns choosing where we want to go or what we want to do. When it's my turn, I'll ask him to come to come to the beach, museums, concerts and stuff with me! ^_^ It will be so cool!! *super excited*
I'm so proud of him X3 He has a job now, too. He works with a tech support company.

Here's the article~

Secrets...

I am so scared. Married. Married! I'll be getting married to this man!
I feel so terrible about this! I feel like we're going to move in together and he's going to expose things that I've been hiding from him.
Such as... I'm a total fangirl over various characters!! T_T



Then again...



I've never ever cheated on him- I've never even considered it! And I mean I've never kissed, touched, or had sex with another man.
Not only that- I worry about his feelings and opinions, I sleep with him when I don't feel like it, I take care of him when he's sick, and I've told him he can watch porn!



I love him,
I just don't want him going through my stuff >:/

I love him,
I just don't want to give away my whole life to him!



I want things that belong to me and no one else!
I'm worried that.... That will be taken away.....

I think he would understand that much, but I know that he would SO freak out over the fangirl part. :/
So........ I can't tell him about that.
Maybe I'm not cut out for this whole "commitment" thing......
I've got some thinking to do.......

Random wedding stuff

Ravine Gardens - Must call the park for rates (386)329-3721

Wedding Dress - 

Catering - 

Flowers - 

Music - 

Photography - 

Bridesmaids dresses -

Groom's suit - 

People I want there:

1. Mom

2. Dad

3. Grandma

4. Grandpa

5. Momma F.

6. Dad F.

7. Gobi - Bridesmaid(?)

8. Ashy

9. Wolfy

10. Kitty - Bridesmaid

11. Nancy - Bridesmaid

12. Derek

13. Niki - Bridesmaid

14. William

15. Olivia

16. Patricia

17. Patrick

18. Benjamin

19. Chelsea

20. 

Estimate:

$7,021 and $11,701

Gawd..... I need a break DX *runs off to write fanfiction*

Jack the Reaper's Magical Devious Escape Plan Entry 2

I was right about the coming fight............. It happened............


Okay, here's the (detailed) plan >:3
1. I'm going to learn how to drive. Once I've learned it and feel comfortable with it, I'm going to get my driver's license. After all, I'll still need to be able to get to work, and without my mom's help.
-I'll have to gather some materials beforehand, though:

The following documentation is required to get your Florida learners permit:

• Two forms of identification - a passport, a birth certificate, and/or a Florida ID
• Your original Social Security card
• Certificate showing that you successfully completed your four hours of drug and alcohol abuse education course
• Certificate showing that you've taken and passed your DMV written exam, IF you've already taken it online

I'll also bring
-A paycheck
-My phone bill
As proof of address.


2. I'll need to apply for Fafsa.


3. Slowly move things out of my room and to my new home.


4. Apply at college.
-Print out college Application, fill out, turn in at school.
-Meet with Guidance counselor.
-Get ACT results and turn into school.


5. Keep working for my very meager paycheck >8C.
-This is why I'll need the driver's license.
-Keep up with paperwork and reports.


6. Marry bf legally with ceremony to follow later.


7. Move away!!


Not necessarily in that order ^_^


I'm not sure how my mother will react to me wanting to get married so soon... She wants me to marry after I'm done with College and stay with her and my dad while I'm going to college. I will try to explain to her....


I will have to wait before this plan goes into effect, though. I have children that come to this house to meet up with me. So until their hours are used up, I'll have to remain living at my house.
There are at least 3 months of tutoring left on these children before I can leave my home.

Jack the Reaper's Magical Devious Escape Plan

Okay- here's the thing:
My mom is angry and upset all the time and she takes it out on me. I get to hear about her marriage problems, her work problems, her dislike of cleaning the house and her problems with my older brother. She's driving me insane.
If I don't get away from her I'm worried that I'm going to snap and just lay her out. To prevent this from happening I'd really like to get my own place...
I'm planning an escape....
It's fool-proof, but it will take a while.
;)




There's a more immediate issue to deal with, though. My brother is coming to visit tomorrow and I fully expect a huge fight to break out. So I've developed a plan to get away from it. I'll take my little brothers with me somewhere outside the house and we'll just sit around a bonfire until it's done (or at least I will, they may or may not want to).

Things I need to think about

1. I need to homeschool my brother:

-Math

-Reading

-Art

-Writing

-Science

2. I need to figure out college:

-Apply for Fafsa

-Apply for St. Johns

SJRCC's Online Catalog

Submit a completed Application and fee of $30

Provide Copies of ACT, SAT, or CPT scores

Provide High School Diploma

Meet with Guidance Counselor

3. Get driver's/learner's license:

-Original/Copy of Birth Certificate

-Pay check/stub

-Utility Bill

-Statement from a person who I reside with (Statement Application) along with:

-Two proofs of residential address

4.

Dreaded Cosmic

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Dreaded Cosmic

Harsh Tea

Summer Lost

Freaky Creek

Scissors Running

Helpless Butter

Grim Avenue

Olive Balcony

Disappointed Postal

Mysterious Winter

So...

I've found out the only way I can draw is alone, or with this one very close friend of mine.

It makes me feel bad though... I can draw with her but not with my boyfriend around...

Also... he was over this past weekend and... I just didn't want him here...

I felt bad about it but................

I just felt so agitated with him being in the room... Because I wanted to draw... and when he's there I just don't feel comfortable drawing.... He always gets in my face and wants me to pay attention to him....... Now how the fuck am I supposed to draw if someone's in my face?! Fuckin dick! >8U

I was so agitated and felt so crowded out with him around that I actually left my room and sat in my mom's walk-in closet! Yes. That is how badly I wanted to be alone!

Now he stayed over all weekend and my weekend is up without me having gotten much drawing done! 

It's back to work tomorrow >:/

Ah.... work.... I liked it at first... now it's something I just don't like to do anymore.......

It seemed like a good job...... Still seems like a good job....... I'm just tired of it already >:I

I tutor children..... Don't worry.... I'm not this angry at work. 

It's just...... I don't feel like I'm any good at it :/ 

There's this one girl who can't read at all. I get nowhere with her. She won't even listen to me read to her.

This other kid just doesn't get fractions at all. And he doesn't understand the relationships between numbers very well. 

Like..... 

3x2=6 therefore 6/2=3

Sometimes.......

I'm afraid.........

...............

Generally I'm high

Not off of drugs- just off of life.

Generally I'm a happy person........

.............

Most of the time.

But sometimes some twinge of reality will hit me.........

Like........ the things I obsess over......... they aren't real.

.........................

But even after having said that

I can't help but think

that somewhere

lurking in some shadow

in some corner

in some alley 

in london

..................

Undertaker exists in some form or another O.O

This is the above-mentioned Undertaker
Don't ask me what the Japanese text says.... O.O I have no friggin clue!
I'd love to know, though, because I think it's something about Undertaker 8I
T_T somebody tell me!

XD Maybe it's like how people believe in God even though it seems so improbable. It's like..... he must be out there somewhere!! 8U

Gawd- I think if I got stoned/drunk enough I'd start praying to him XDDDDDD (To Undertaker, I mean XP) 

>_< Anyway, this guy's much more fun than that 'God' people spend so much time worrying over. 

But I digress........

Fuck........... I just want to spend one weekend all alone......... No one coming over....... No one inviting me over............. Just drawing and writing....... That would be my "heaven"........

Well, the best I can hope for right now is waking up tomorrow around 11 like I always do, going to work, and then coming home and either drawing, writing, watching Netflix, or some combination of all of them. That's all I ever really want to do (hehe I don't have very complicated desires). Of course.... when someone finally decides to found the "Church of Undertaker" I'll devote myself to the church XDDDD

Gawd........... I feel so.......... mad............

:I :/